Life after lock down - A future through self awareness

The past two months has given testament to the fact that life is uncertain and unpredictable. The world has been faced with unprecedented turmoil and disruption due to the current Corona virus pandemic. Life as we knew it, now ceases to exist and a new way of life has dawned upon us. A life where social interaction is feared and practiced with reluctance, showing any type of physical affection has been banned. We have been forced to take on this "new way of life" primarily because we wish to survive and protect the most vulnerable among us. So the question remains, have we learnt anything by the corner we have been pushed into? Have we given it any thought?

I received a video message from one of my sisters the other day and it depicted the virus as a living being, speaking to us "the human species", reflecting on itself and how it came to be, how we became its host and why and what it has come to do in order to thrive. We are referred to as "predators" consuming all the worlds natural resources, and creating an imbalance. We are drawn to recollect several "natural disasters", as we call them, where the Earth cries out in an attempt to teach us that we are not indispensable, and in order for her to survive, we "mankind" can be taken out. The video needless to say was incredibly thought provoking and I would not be writing this post if it did not stir this feeling in me that we really need to reflect on where we have come to as a human race and where we are collectively going for generations to come. She ended the message with a note, saying "This video clip reflects a valuable lesson on: What Future do you Choose?" I believe this is a powerful question, and the reason I say this, is that it implies we do have a choice and that our choices now impact our future generations, our kids, their kids and so on. So essentially we need to ask ourselves, what future do we choose for our kids and what are we doing about it now?


I encourage you to watch this video and as you do so, take cognizance of your thoughts, how does this depiction of us as human beings being referred to as "predators" make you feel?




Now, having watched the video, what is your initial response? When you see and hear about what "we" as human beings have done on this earth what do you think? What is your natural response?

As humans we have an inclination to think "we" is actually "them" and our go to response is that its not me, I am not harming this planet "they" are. In Michael Mckinney's article on Knowing thyself!, he states that, "Our vision of our inner world does not come as naturally to us as our ability to perceive the outside world". We look outward because its far easier to focus on the world and people out there and say its just how the world is.We absolve ourselves from the equation as we fail to see ourselves as a part of the problem, rationalizing our current behavior and lifestyle by saying, "What can I possibly do that will make any significant difference?"

Some become defensive and go on to denial, even blaming "others" for the state of the world and the environment currently and for the lock down we are in now, we say things like, "If "people" don't follow the rules, what do you expect?", "This virus is man made, if these "people" stop eating every living creature we would not be in this predicament", "How can government institute a lock down when people are starving?". All these statements may very well be true, the relevance however lies in what we are thinking and telling ourselves, we are removing ourselves from the picture and by doing so, we seek to not take responsibility for our part in it. Business professor Richard S. Tedlow says that, "in the face of an uncomfortable truth, we sometimes think that by denigrating or finding fault with the messenger we can neutralize the criticism.Thus we shoot the messenger, ridiculing and scorning him in self-defense".
 
Most of us are satisfied with this "default" way of thinking, after all its what we know, its comfortable to think of the world as an external object and we choose not to see ourselves in relation to the world. However with the recent pandemic, we can see that the world is not this external object we read about or watch on television, that we are all being affected by this in some way, shape or form. And we ask ourselves, "why am I so frustrated now?", "Why have so many of my freedom's been taken away?" We have had to change our lifestyles, step out of our comfort zones, many with great resistance and reluctance to make the changes that have been enforced upon us, but what are we learning from this process? 

The majority of people are just waiting for the lock down to end so we can resume our lives as it was before, however we may need to reconsider this way of thinking. If we continue to do the same things we have always done, behave in the same way, go back to continuously repeating what we did in the past, because we are accustomed to it, how do we anticipate any positive change to happen in our lives and in the world. 

We always hear sayings, such as "The change begins with you", "In order to make a difference you need to take the first step", " The future is in your hands". However, do we really know what change needs to be made? Do we know what step needs to be taken first? Do we know where to begin? I don't believe the majority of us know the answers to these questions, I also suspect that there is no one answer and no right answer for everyone. One thing I can tell you is that, we have very little control over what happens around us, we cannot change others, we cannot force change in our surroundings, but the one thing we do have control over is ourselves, we can control our mind, thinking and behavior, development and growth.

I would like to explore the constructs of self awareness and self improvement, through the process of continuously rediscovering ourselves, in an attempt to guide those that wish to grow and learn. In this post I hope to facilitate this, by explaining how one can begin, by firstly understanding what it meant by "self awareness", "self- knowledge". In my writings of what these concepts mean to me and how I have gone through a process of self discovery and continue to do so, its not my intention to offend anyone, but to serve as a catalyst for growth, enabling you to think about yourself and reflect on your own life, values, beliefs, attitudes, lifestyle, choices etc.to better understand yourself in order for you to grow and improve as a human being. If you want to make a difference in the world and in your live, you need to turn inward, begin to discover who you are by practicing self-knowledge. In the words of Warren Bennis, "self-knowledge, self-invention are lifetime processes"(On Becoming a Leader, 1989). 


What is the concept of Self Awareness?

In his book Emotional Intelligence, Daniel Goleman describes self-awareness as “an ongoing attention to one’s internal states.” The ability to pay attention to your feelings as they occur, whilst taking note of how you have perceived things and how these are collectively influencing your thinking and behavior. Your behavior is a direct reflection of your thoughts. As human beings we are able to question the world we live in, but we are also able to question ourselves, take a step back and analyse our emotions, thoughts and behaviors. This ability is referred to as "mindsight" by Clinical professor of psychiatry Daniel J. Siegel, he goes on to say that this “uniquely human ability,” is every bit as essential to our well-being as our five senses.

In the words of Gandhi, “happiness is when what you think, say, and do are in harmony.” If this is true, why do we stray from our values in thought, word, and deed? The reason for this is, we don't always hold ourselves accountable to our own values, by this I mean, we behave in ways we know are not right according to our own values. We avoid the admission of guilt to ourselves, however we must admit our faults if we wish to grow. It is only in attempting to understand ones self, learning more about the strengths and weakness that we have, can we begin to make positive changes to our behavior.

"Contentment comes when we accept our true nature. Mindfulness helps us build areas of the brain that encourage a kinder orientation toward the self, helping us to align thought, word, and deed."

~ GANDHI

Self awareness is also ones ability to think about ones self and look at ones relationship with the world. Our behavior is dictated by our thoughts, yet there are very few people who take the time to understand what they think, how they think and why they do what they do.The idea behind self awareness and mindfulness is not new, many teachings have focused on ones thought, word and deed, but in order to fully understand how these three can work synchronously, we need to firstly understand our thoughts, what influences us, and shapes the way we think. In order to do this we need to know ourselves better. Tedlow notes, “through self-knowledge, openness to criticism, and receptivity to facts and perspectives that challenge our own, we can arm ourselves against denial” (Denial, 2010). We begin to learn from admitting our mistakes, because we become more open to our own weaknesses and see ourselves for who we truly are. This is much easier said than done, the ability to allow ourselves to be vulnerable and receptive to open critique and facts about our weaknesses requires a special quality, humility, a quality that does not come naturally to us. Humility is a fundamental quality that we need to develop in order accept ourselves for who we are and not what we want to be or what we think we are. The apostle Paul observed: “If anyone thinks he is something, when he is nothing, he deceives himself” (Galatians 6:3). Humility gives us a foundation on which to develop a teachable mindset, this frame of mind and readiness to learn is what makes change possible.

“Taking on a disposition of humility and learning keeps us open to changing ourselves and consequently keeps us from claiming to be perfect.”

~ BILL WELTER AND JEAN EGMON, THE PREPARED MIND OF A LEADER (2006)

Our lifestyles currently are extremely hectic and demanding of us, the drive to excel in our careers, physical health and recreational activities consumes most of our time and according to McKinney, "Our technology-driven lives don’t lend themselves to stopping and reflecting on our behavior or our thinking." He goes on to say that, " without reflection, however, we never learn the strengths we can leverage or the weaknesses we have to manage. We tend to live our lives on autopilot, reacting habitually to every situation we find ourselves in". We strive to grow the ladder in all areas of our lives and succeed, but this success is dictated by the outside world and not a true reflection of our inner growth, only you truly know this, if you know yourself. Warren Bennis a leadership expert writes about self knowledge stating that "it still is the most difficult task any of us faces. But until you know yourself, strengths and weaknesses, you cannot succeed in any but the most superficial sense of the word."


Professor, Dr. Biswajit Satpathy in his paper on The Knowledge of the "Self" goes on to state that, "It has been found that the average person utilizes only about 10% of their brains capability. What about the other 90%? Would our Creator have provided us with mind power that he had no intention for us to use?". A valid question right, so in what way do we attempt to utilize the other 90% of our brain? Satpathy goes on to say,"the attempt to find the answer to that question is the first step towards self-realization". It is by focusing inward that we will assist ourselves in, as he says it "developing a heightened awareness of how the brain operates as well as explain how one can utilize one’s mind power to dramatically increase it’s limitless capabilities".


How can you practice Self awareness and benefit from it?


There are several ways in which one can practice self-awareness and there are four specific lessons that Warren Bennis outlines in this process of self knowledge which I believe we can benefit from.
One important point that Bennis expresses is that, "no one can teach you how to become yourself, to take charge, to express yourself, except you", with this being said, there are some things that others have done which can assist you in your journey of self knowledge and are extremely useful to think about in this process.


The four lessons of self knowledge, as developed by Bennis, are as follows:
  • You are your own best teacher
  • Accept Responsibility. Blame no one
  • You can learn anything you want to learn
  • True understanding comes from reflecting on your experience
In recent months I have embarked on a journey of self discovery and in the process I have had to ask myself some tough questions. I have also been critical of myself, my choices and my behavior. I have tried to make positive changes in my life, based on the not so great findings of areas that I believe needed improvement, to facilitate growth and to re-evaluate behaviors that no longer served me well. In this process I have asked my self questions that you would not ordinarily ask yourself, I went beyond the fluffy stuff and really looked at being critical of why I do what I do, what are my core values and how do I wish to live my life. I have gone through this exercise to really try and understand who I am, what influences me as an individual and is my behavior really serving me well in different areas of my life.

During this lock down, when we have more idle time but also added frustrations and different challenges, I opted to looking at ways to cope but also ways to learn new things about myself. I would like to share with you some of the areas I have focused on, as well as ideas from what others have done to practice self knowledge and actively engage daily in this thing we call "self awareness". You may be surprised to note that some things you may already be doing and may have not realized the ways in which they have benefited you.

Our behavior and our shortcomings are our own, which will dictate what we need to change to live our purpose and our intention for our life.These are some deep and hard questions I have added, to ask ourselves, in order to establish where we are currently, so I encourage you to look at your self and your behavior honestly when answering these questions. This exercise is to assist you with a personal analysis of yourself, there are no right or wrong answers here. 

I focused on the following areas to facilitate my growth journey:


Objectively focus on yourself

Its important to know what your purpose is and what your intent for your life is, these questions can help you start identify what you are thinking about these things and if your current behavior aligns to you intentions.

  • Who am I?
  • What drives me?
  • Why do I do daily and why do I do it?
  • Am I contributing to the problem or the solution where the environment is concerned?
  • Do I shift blame from myself for the current state of the world ?
  • Do I look around at the world and the suffering mankind faces and the other species too and think, well I'm just one person, what can I possibly do to save the world? Or do I look at ways I can make a difference?
  • Do I consume more resources than necessary and why? Think about food, resources, time, space, possessions, money........etc. Or do I try and conserve resources?
  • Do I waste resources and why? Again, think about food, resources, time, space, possessions, money........etc. Or do I actively try not to waste resources even though I can afford it?
  • What are my current thoughts around the current pandemic and its effects on the world right now? What is my intention to help and how can I help?

Write your thoughts in a journal

The idea behind writing our thoughts down is to assist your in relieving your mind of those ideas and clears it up making room for new information and ideas to flow. Take some time each night to write in your journal about your thoughts and feelings, and your successes and failures for the day. This will facilitate growth and help your to move forward in your achievements.

  • What is my reason for being? (The reason you wake up in the morning)
  • What role do I play in the bigger picture?
  • Make a list of the thoughts and beliefs about yourself and the world around you that you may have, that might be inhibiting your ability to see miracles in each day?
  • What am I  most grateful for? 
  • Who do I hold accountable for the deterioration of the environment and why?
  • If the effects of the current lock down doesn't directly affect me, does it matter?

Make time to clarify your values

It would be a scary question to ask ourselves, if we looked at, how often time is made to consider our highest values and aspirations? The busy days we have, lends itself to days being swept up and week after week going by and eventually months have gone past in a constant spindle of activity without much time for reflection, especially reflection on the most important things. Its therefore no surprise we have difficulty reaching our goals and finding satisfaction when we don't allocate any time to contemplate what that would even look like for us. What’s more is, it’s probably not surprising that we end up chasing artificial goals that culture and society tell us are important (nice car, big house, trim waistline, private schools for our kids, etc.) but that we don’t genuinely find meaningful and rewarding.
  • What are my values, beliefs?
  • What is my attitude towards the current state the world is in?
  • What are my intentions for myself in this world?
  • What is my wish for the world we live in?

Consult close trusted friends to describe you


Usually the people that are closest to us, know us pretty well and are able to see things that we are blinded to, which is one of the levels of self awareness, a part of us that others are able to see that we are not. The only way to learn about this part for improving ourselves is to ask, but also we need to be open to the criticism and negative findings that may be revealed. Remember this is meant to help you grow, and we cannot grow unless we know what to improve upon or change.

All too often, we are strangers to ourselves. . . . It is in our relationships with others that we learn about ourselves.” 


WARREN BENNIS, ON BECOMING A LEADER (1989)

Daily self reflection
In order to have self-awareness, you must do self-reflection. This requires setting aside some time, hopefully every day, to honestly look at yourself as a person and a leader. Committing to this practice can help you improve.

  • Write down three things you hope for in life? Now write down how you believe you will feel once that hope is attained.
  • When your routine, work or relationships are upended, whats your reaction?
  • Note three things that you feel most uncertain about right now. Now write your expectations good or bad for each.
  • Do I just want the lock down to end so I can resume my life as it was prior to the lock down?
  • Have I tried to help anyone other than myself during this trying period?
  • How am I a teacher in my life?
  • Do I feel fear of the current pandemic? What behavior of mine is currently fueled by fear?
  • What kind of lifestyle have I prepared myself for going forward?
If you are a parent, you not only look at yourself but what role model are you for your kids. You have the responsibility of raising tomorrows adults. Some questions to ask yourself.
  • What am I teaching my kids about this world and the future?
  • What are the core values I want to impart to my children?
  • Do I place the same emphasis on education in human values than I do on mainstream formal education?
  • Am I raising a good human being, that happens to be an A student or just an A student in the school with the drive to succeed?
  • What have I taught my kids thus far regarding the environment, the virus and the need to take precautions going forward? Have I adequately prepared them?

Identify your emotional kryptonite

  • What negative emotions do you especially dislike?
All of us have emotions that we do not like, and more often than not, that means we try very hard to avoid feeling that emotion. The problem is, being so afraid of an emotion that we’re willing to do just about anything to avoid it can lead to some pretty negative consequences in the long-term such as substance abuse, or emotional eating.In an attempt to avoid or drown the emotion, we actual avoiding listening to what the emotion is telling us. Negative emotions are painful because our mind is trying to get our attention, sometimes for a very good reason.

If we are able to endure the discomfort of our emotional kryptonite we could open ourselves to learning and gaining a lot of insight about ourselves and our world, provided we willing to listen.


Practice meditation and other mindfulness habits

Meditation is the practice of improving your mindful awareness. Most types of meditation focus on the breath, but not all meditation and mindfulness has to be formal. You can also find greater clarity from regular moments of reflection. Below are a few and you may already be doing quite a few of these already.
  • What mindfulness habits do you practice?
    • Wake up Early
    • Awaken with Gratitude
    • Practice a Morning Breathing Exercise
    • Notice Your Thoughts
    • Make Your Bed Mindfully
    • Drink Water
    • Smile in the Mirror
    • Practice Morning Meditation
    • Write in a Journal
    • Read Inspirational Content
    • Be Present with Your Family
    • Connect with Nature
    • Complete a 10-Minute Exercise Warm-Up
    • Declutter One Space
    • Decrease Distractions
    • Stand, Stretch, and Get Moving
    • Take a Digital Break
  • Write yourself a self care plan for a week. How can you take good care of your self? What can you plan to incorporate into your week that nourish and fuel you.
Learn a new skill

Learning something new forces us to think in different and novel ways. As we get older we become set in our ways and even though we have the comfort of things being a certain way, we also have a narrowness of the mind and thoughts. When you indulge in something new, you open up the mind to new ways of thinking and possibilities.
  • Learn to ride a bike
  • Take a painting or dance class
  • Try writing a article ;)
  • Try baking if you have never done it
  • Try doing an online course

Now based on your answers to these questions and others you may come up with, when evaluating the answers continuously ask yourself the following:

  • What thoughts and behaviors can you stop because they do not align to your values and your intention for your life?
  • What thoughts and behaviors can you change because they are not currently assisting you with fully achieving what you intend to and you would like to improve upon.
  • What behaviors should you continue to do because they are serving you well and are aligned to your purpose and intention for your life.
The ultimate findings from this exercise is to determine if we are doing what we need to, to live our purpose and to achieve what we intend to for our lives?

It is in understanding ourselves and what our own internal drivers are, we will be better equipped to appreciate the challenges others face. When we begin to live our lives with compassion and empathy for others it will make it easier to follow a fundamental biblical precept: to treat others as we’d like to be treated, to love others as we love ourselves (Luke 6:31; Matthew 22:39; Galatians 5:14).
This is the fundamental reason we should learn and come to know more about ourselves, ultimately focusing inward, in order for us to look outward with greater clarity, compassion and tolerance for the world.

It is my wish that this post inspires you and motivates you to know more about yourself, to live life fully, learning and growing abundantly, and reach even greater heights than you ever imagined possible through true self-awareness.

Much love

~Nerusha R


REFERENCES

1. Warren Bennis, On Becoming a Leader (1989).
2. Daniel Goleman, Emotional Intelligence: Why It Can Matter More Than IQ (1995).
3. Daniel J. Siegel, Mindsight: The New Science of Personal Transformation (2010).
4. Richard S. Tedlow, Denial: Why Business Leaders Fail to Look Facts in the Face—and What to Do About It (2010).
5. Prof. Dr Biswajit Satpathy, The Knowledge of “Self” from the Bhagavad-Gita and Its Significance for Human Capital Development (2018)
6. Michael McKinney, Knowing Thyself!, (2011)





Comments

Unknown said…
This has really awaken my thought's looking forward in life into the future. Reading ur Block has now given me to see life from another Angle that I never imaged could exit can have such an impact on all creation that God has created especially when we Humans are self centred .I truly enjoyed the Block . well Done. You have inspired me the most...Raj Moodley . Pls continue.
Nisha said…
Love it! "We are what we repeatedly do, excellence then, is not an act but a habit" Will Durant. The journey of self discovery allows us identify our beliefs and makes us aware of what we do to remain true to those values.
Muzi said…
I fully agree with the quote from Daniel Goleman: Self-awareness as “an ongoing attention to one’s internal states.” . It reminds me of Dr Eric Thomas declaring that "change only comes when there is a commitment". He states that "Making a commitment involves dedicating yourself to a cause. The commitment to the solution is the answer to the problem. Change only come when you are committed. Don't do it because it's convenient, do it because you are ready to make a commitment". Commitment is ongoing and consistent despite any challenge, whereas convenience is doing something as long you are able to proceed without difficulty. In his speech, he references Dr Martin Luther King Jr leading a peaceful bus protest for 381 days, walking to and back from work. Therefore, self-awareness will definitely need to be ongoing. It will need to be a lifestyle, not when its new years time or when in future something bad happens in the world.
Thanks for your comment Muzi, I agree that "commitment" is key and fundamental in this case for your own consistent and ongoing individual growth. Being completely committed to your own transformation and growth is no easy task but the rewards are great.
Nishaan said…
Truly on point, Excellent!!
Self evaluate, make positive changes to live as best we can
Every small change leads to something great.
A very thought provoking and inspiring read.

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